What's up humans? So I thought I'd record it on video this time. I'm using my iPhone 6 Just hopefully because it'll make it a smaller file size to edit Because I can't afford to fill up my hard drive right now. I really can't I'm 14 13 12 days away from doing this, you know this is it and I'm fucking exhausted I'm beat I Know there's no way in hell. I'm gonna get everything done The way it has to be and it's gonna be imperfect, you know, I'm a perfectionist. This is just how it's gonna be so I'm just taking it day by day and just seeing where it leads me Whatever I get done I get done and that's just the way it is You know, it's just there's a lot of my mind if you're in my position you'd have a lot in your mind too and and Every day every night rather I have to make count, you know, this is it Two weeks under two weeks now just under two weeks to live Process that process process Process that in your head you got two weeks to live. What do you do? And I got way too fucking much to do Been putting everything together for that digital release set which fortunately pretty much all like the major videos are on there Pretty much my entire video collection is on that media fire page All the gaming videos I have recovered are on there um We've been uploading pictures and stuff now But you know, it's a fucking it's a lot it's so much stuff like right now there's got to be like fucking 80 gigs on there somewhat close to that anyway and Depending when anyone sees this I download that while you can Because I have to pay to have the extra space like I have a terabyte of space to upload whatever the hell I want and I think that lasts for like a year or two and then once that's up Then I got to pay to read to like renew it, you know, so by then chances are it would get terminated You know, and I'd lose everything so download while you can or Find someone that has downloaded everything so Yeah speaking to the fans of the future here so Anyways, I guess I should talk about what the plan is now because there's been so many freakin Variations and variables that go into this and what I intend on doing what is possible doing and what I'm ultimately probably gonna do, you know There's all kinds of ways I can do this and I Wanted desperately to find keys to unlock the propane cage And there's like eight to twelve fucking propane Kang or tanks that are like this big, you know huge and I dug through the desk in the manager's office. I found a shit ton of keys none of them opened it and The one that was on my key ring fit the lock But it wouldn't turn I was like fuck it was a bummer It was a huge letdown like I thought it would been amazing if I can get in there You know set up propane tanks and explode them all over the place and everything and you know, it would have been great but it's not gonna happen so the alternative to that is gather a bunch of the lighter fluid and Many propane canisters that unfortunately didn't really do anything when I shot at it It's just a poof like a big plume of smoke in the air But yeah gather all those together in a shopping cart with all the lighter fluids there You can get like fucking like 40 lighter fluid bottles. That's gonna be an explosion so That's possible. That's probably what's gonna have to end up happening because I'm not gonna be able to get in that propane cage No matter how hard I try so Um One big change that's happened is I've been pretending on doing it before break now mainly because that time slot is so goddamn tight between 1 and 145 it is virtually impossible to Block all the exits and everything and Then have nobody see it, you know, it's um Wednesday nights are the smallest orders we have and last night was Wednesday and it was a puny order It was really small. There wasn't much of anything in terms of substantial size pallets and everything So unfortunately that might be what ends up happening on the seventh, but the thing is I'll one is where Brian always is and that's the vegetable aisle the you know microwavable meals and all that and Generally it takes like an hour or more to do usually last night I probably took him like a half hour for all I know I didn't pay attention but there wasn't a lot for it and The biggest problem with that is he would have to go into the back room and get rid of his cardboard and plastic for the next style Well, if he goes into the back room, he's gonna see all the pallets I have lined up so you can't do you can't risk that you know and I Just got me to thinking it's like well great because Victorian Kristen I found out now That's most likely their lunch hour because they've been in the back room for quite a while between one and like 130 So that's their lunch hour. They work like eight to three in the morning So you figure one o'clock. That's a lunch hour. So I was like fuck because it was 135 They were in the back room stone. That's what I intended on doing it. You know, that was my initial plan So that got me to think it's like, okay, great. Maybe I got to do it sooner now Which blows in a way because then I have like no fucking time to like pre-empt myself for it. I just got to do it so This is what I came up with 1210 is usually when we're pushing stuff out. We're not really ever in the back room much later than that Maybe 1220 at the latest but on a Wednesday, no fucking way Monday and Fridays are the bigger orders Wednesday is Not that big at all But anyways, you know quarter after 12 is when we're pushing all the stuff out on carts and everything and Brian disappears for like five to ten minutes and I don't know where he goes either He goes to the fucking shitter every night or he's on the like the back manager's office computer or something Which I didn't ask I should like that way. I know where he is But that got me to thinking I got like ten free minutes there That's why I'm gonna send out all the emails so like 1220 1215. I'm gonna send all the emails out on my phone So they're taking care of it out of the way He'll come out on the onto the floor going I'll want it like 1220 or you know, whenever and that's my Go time. That's what I'm gonna go to the back room and start blocking the exits with pallets The main problem I've found is The produce area produce is gonna be the biggest bitch to block because Unlike receiving the receiving doors are double doors but there's only one that can push to go out the other one you got a latch and It got me to think it's like great because produce is a bitch because they're it's a set of double doors So you would need two pallets to block that, you know That's a problem because that's also the closest exit besides the bakery exit which I'm gonna block with my car produce is the closest way to get out and It's um That's the wild card one. I don't know how I'm gonna block those Because I think I counted it's like five doors. I got a block or at least Clutter so it slows people down from getting out because you got the one all the way down by the back manager's office Which is the farthest away from anyone in the whole building No one's ever gonna think to go out that one, but I still got a block in anyway But that one I still intend on doing like right when he locks the store up if not, I can do it while we're pushing stuff out or Just right when I'm about to block everything else But that's the easiest door to block just because it's so far away and always down there There's always pallets of soda and you know somewhere like up to my chin and everything you could block that fairly easily The other ones there's two right next to the frozen food freezer which is like you know 20 feet from receiving pretty much there's one that's like 20 feet from receiving the others like 50 and They're tight exits because you got like you got like the The water softener back there or whatever and you got like these big poles in front of it So you can't hit it with a power jack or anything But there's a door in the middle of it. So getting a pallet in there is really tight, but it's doable And then the other one which is like 20 feet away from the receiving doors Which is pretty much the easiest besides the one by the back manager's office And then you got the receiving door Which shouldn't be too hard the only thing I need to figure out is if you can push The one on the right the one on the left is the push one to open the one next to it Doesn't have anything to push on which you would think would mean it would be locked in place So unless you had the other door open, that's what I'm thinking you have to do But I need to see my next off night my next non-load night rather if it if you need to push it or not Because I really don't know No, obviously you got the big truck bay doors you got two on this side There's only two but they're always changed shut with the lock So you'll sort to bring your keys out and open it. So only Brian would be able to get out through there Nobody else would except him and me Which I'm not worried about you know That's plenty of time for me to get into the back room and get him if I had to um The other door is the produce door and that's it besides the main entrance. So there is a lot of doors and It is such a tight window. I I know I can do it It's just it's fucking hard to pull off because you got four other people in the building But the thing is if it's like 1230 Victorian christen, they're gonna be on the sales floor no matter what they should not be in the Backroom really for any reason I can't see why because all the tags and stuff are in their cart that they push around the frickin facility And they should not need to go into the back room for anything except for a lunch or a break Okay, there's no reason they should be in the back room Terry the floor guy is gonna be running his scrubber his floor machine. He will be on the floor 99% of the time because once in a while he'll go through the back room and get the floor there but that's usually like It's like once or twice a week, but I Doubt he would be doing it then hopefully not I Can't remember if he did it last night or not. I don't think so but Yeah, so that's really the only thing I got to watch Brian will be an aisle one no matter what during that span of time. So I got to pull that off in about Three minutes I it's such a frickin tight window because I got to block all that up Go back out onto the floor Go out through the main entrance Pull my car up to the side and block the bakery exit doors gear up and go in and go to town and All the while I need to block the main entrance too, which was it was I wasn't gonna do it But then I realized that I could put like a juice palette there and block it Just as long as you can't get to the lock to open it You're fine Because the lock is right in the middle of the doors. You just turn it you can open it But if I put a pallet there, you're not gonna be able to get to it So what I thought I'm doing was when we're wheeling everything out. I never really do it I never take the palette of juice or the water out when we're pulling out the the carts and everything But I thought I can bring that out bring it on the floor Put it at the end of the water or juice aisle The water isles right at the main entrance. I could bring it right there. No one will suspect a thing I'll tell Brian. I'm just gonna wheel it out, you know, or I don't even bother separating it I do both aisles anyway. I'll do it and there you go. You got a pout that's up to here problem solved so It's just it's a lot to do It's such a small window of time It can be done. I know it can But just everything has to be just so it's ridiculously tight But the only good thing is There's nothing really wrong with it, you know that I don't have guns on me when I'm doing it, you know, I'm not geared up or anything so you know Goddess forbid if somebody does see me blocking the exits they I Don't know. I don't know what they say. I don't know what I'd say Yeah That's why I just I gotta do as fast as possible and That's just it It's so much to do guys. It is so much to do all by yourself, you know, it's so fucking hard But in reality, it's not that hard it's just a matter of not getting seen That's the hardest part Blocking everything is pretty easy. I just got to analyze the living hell out of it when I'm breaking stuff down to see What's where what I could use, you know? So it's just It's just I don't know This is gonna be like that, you know, you just gotta go And I really wish it could be this week Really wish because I'm I'm tired of everything. I'm tired of pushing myself every day I'm tired of getting up every night Just not even feeling like I slept because I haven't I get like four hours of sleep a night. That's it So I was up to like four in the afternoon Wake up at nine the next night That night rather Or instant repeat Tired Oh Tired of breathing I'm tired of going to a dead-end job I'm tired of putting all this effort into videos that aren't going anywhere I'm tired of animating in general. I don't want to do it anymore I'm tired of my body I'm tired of food I Tired of everybody I don't want to deal with another human again alive anyway I'm tired of having to watch what I post on social media I Tired of the same old routine I'm tired of feeling like I'm screaming on the inside and nobody within a million miles can hear me scream That's what it feels like every day I'm tired of having to live as somebody I'm not I Tired of being nice tired of beer Tired of everything Tired of everything but my girls it's really it Laura finally has been getting me the voiceover for the massacre video. It's talking. It's taking forever Goes back to me saying how much I hate relying on people. I mean Laura's okay. I don't mind Laura. I like Laura like her a lot She's great Fuck I've been waiting since March Been waiting two months to get the opening voiceover section from her Which is like, you know, they literally piss me off more than other people do because of this or you know Rachel you're failing math again. What about like that whole opening portion? I have not had the voiceover for For her for the last two months. I've been waiting for I only got three lines the other day She got it to me, but it's pissing me off So I want it I need it Fortunately, I don't need to animate anything for that really I've just accepted that I just Fucking done with animation. I Still gonna animate more things, but I'm Doing the bare minimum if I don't need to animate something I'm not gonna animate it because I got like fucking like 15 shots to animate within two weeks That's tight. That's really fucking tight. That's almost impossible Not to mention the ending which I didn't even freaking figure out yet Looks like I have figured it out, but I don't know how I'm gonna do it because I Intended on having me get shot by cops that stormed into the school But I don't even think I'm gonna animate cops now because it's like too fucking hard I have to cheat which shots where they're walking around because I it's a pain in the ass doing walk cycles I did a run cycle, but even that was like stiff. It's hard. I gotta do everything so fucking fast You know I don't have time to make it perfect It's what it is. That's the sad thing about this video. It's gonna be what it is It's a shame. I mean the voice acting is good acting You know The animation it's still good though compared to what I've done the animation is the best it's ever been But the lousy thing is I got a rush through it Sucks But at the same time I don't give a shit because I'm tired of it I'm so tired of animating stuff. It takes so damn long my nights off from work at Four in the morning is by time I like start working on stuff I'll get up at like 2 33 o'clock shower eat watch YouTube a little bit and you know Start animating and then before you know it's like fucking 10 o'clock and it's like wow. I only did one shot The other fucking night it took me the whole night to animate Um What was it the comeback sequence? Um, I think it was a to follow my own fantasy that little movement there That took like all fucking night to animate that part It's outrageous how long that takes And even though I know what I'm doing with it Think about animations you can cheat by taking properties of other movements and then pacing it again and reusing it You know, but still depending what you're doing you're gonna you got the author shit, you know Can't be the same exact animation got to change it, but it takes all damn night It's ridiculous I mean it just blows my mind like in my head it's like I can animate it so fast like boom, buh-buh-buh boom All right done next one Take eight hours to do one shot at times sometimes it takes half that sometimes it only takes a Fourth of that, you know sometimes it takes like a couple hours and you're under the next one There are times where I get like two to three shots done in a night But anymore it's like you just get one one and a half By 1030 it's like I don't want to do it anymore. I'm done Then I go shooting or something That's happened. Some of those shooting videos are after I was animating stuff, but it's just I Was like I like sound like I inhale like so fucking loud. I Don't know I'm like I'm dying. I am dying Fuck Please don't tell me I was someone getting home That would suck哈哈哈